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| Ah ha!
I am not the James.
Catface was in the kitchen facing around
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| The last two days have been both fantastic, and horible.
Everyhing went half right. Fixed my gun. Then i think it broke agian.
I went to work, and Laurye called me, and then a few hours later, broke up with me.
Were still friends tho. I think more than that. Me and laurye werent realy ever 'just friends' and i dont think we ever will be. But thats okay.
A side note to Laurye.
Dont kill yourself. Dont die. Theres always a reason to live. Id be sad no matter how you died if you did. Your just going to have to be strong and get through this shit. It'll get better. I know it will.
I worked from 11-5 today on 3 hours of sleep. Im surprised i can still type and think rite now. Jerome prolly lost his job today. So thats why i stayed till 5, instead of 3.
Im too tired to think of anymore. Theres soooo much going on in my head rite now ...
I never wanted last nite to end ... I dont want today to end ... It will all fade to gray, and ill forget. I never want to forget.
Depresion is contagious...
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| Woot! I forgot how fun concerts are. I didnt even realy listen to the music. I was too busy moshing and the like.
Rite now, both of my upper arms hurt a bit, my legs are tired, and my throat is killing me.
I love it.
It was realy fun. I think this month is begining to take shape. The end of things of old, and the start of new things.
Rite now im in the mood to rock out. I want everyone who reads this to post a rock-ish song that has a decent and audible bass line that i can learn.
I also went crowd surfing. I kicked someone in the head.
Im still wearing my combat boots. Steel toe and heel. It was fun.
Props to Eric. Thats Laurye's and Lisa's dad. Hes totaly awsome. He was moshing with us, and better than most of the crowd there.
Anyhow, i cant think straight rite now, and the adreneline is wearing off and im starting to feel the pain.
Laters.
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| Well. July has gone from kick ass, to pretty crappy, and its working its way back up to normal.
Had a little fun here and there. New experiences. And of course the usual stuff.
I cant realy think of anything that I want to say right now. I never realy can.
I rarely update these. I used too. Maby I will start doing it more when school starts.
I hope i can get over a few things. I still feel broken. I dont even know why anymore. Everything fades to black. I dont clearly remember anything. I close my eyes and i see nothing. If i do see anything, its random images. I cant clear my head. I cant think. I hate it. I want to be able to just sit and think of nothing. The only time I think im able to do that is when im around females. Even then sometimes I cant.
I think Ive ADD. Its geting hard to concentrate on one thing anymore. I mean i can do it, and its pretty easy, but the thing is I dont remember having to think about it tho.
Then agian, i dont remember much at all. Its all there, but theres a foggy peice of glass in between me and all my memories. And theres something on the other side i cant see, taking my memories. Maby its the entity i refered to as the 'Cleaning Lady.'
What I realy need is to just chill out. A little vodka would do nicely. Not alot ... And not the cheap stuff. Maby I'll get some before school starts. I want to. Maby alcohol can help me focus. Thats irony if it does. hah.
Who knows?
Thats all for now.
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| Heyo! Whats up my few dedicated fans? Hah. I wish.
Not much is hapening here. Counting days, and killing time.
For some reason my left shoulder hurts. Duno why.
*scampers off for food*
Frosted Krispies. These things are totaly awsome.
Thank you Josh, for showing me these.
I realy want to post something interesting and worth while ... But i realy cant think of anything.
I hate how my mind works like that.
Oh well.
Im considering quiting Taco Pronto. My hours are sucking. 12 hours last week! I mean honestly!
I duno where id work tho ...
Im in another of those weird moods. I dont think anyone will realy understand what I mean. Its kindof hard to explain.
There might be more I want to say ... but its not coming to me now.
Later.
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